It's just that kind of day..

Two weeks ago, Brian invited me to Bible study and the Powers' with him and I never thought a couple weeks ago when I sat there at the Power's house watching Brian flirt with Laura, that two weeks later I would be furious with Brian and really close to Laura. I can honestly say that I'm on the other side of the fence now. He invited me two weeks ago to Bible study and the Power's house afterwards where EVERYTHING went really well, except for the fact he ignored me while he flirted with Laura. This week, he invited me again, and Laura didn't go, and I want to be able to learn more about the Bible, I want to spend time with these people who are really nice and welcoming, so those parts went really well yet again and then Brian completely ignored me. He just kept running away. First, I sat on the couch and he went to the floor so I went to the floor but then he went to the couch and then I ended up on the couch but instead of him moving for me to sit beside him, he made me sit on the other end, two people away from him. And then he sat there and ignored me completely and laughed and smiled and had fun with someone else. And now I just am completely turned off from the guy. He was rude, he was disrespectful and in all honesty, he was a jerk. You don't invite someone to go to something with you and then completely ignore them. I think the first time I made excuses for him so I gave him another chance, and he did it again. And now I just don't want to go back there. I just want nothing to do with him.

The reason why Laura and I are on the same side now is because we've been becoming closer. And then we had this conversation about how she was mad at a friend and her friend was treating her badly because they completely ignored her, walked all over her but expected her to be like a puppy dog and go crawling back to them. She said it wasn't Brian..but after tonight, I told her how things went and she admitted that it was him. Two weekends ago, he did the same thing to her. I can't believe I am even typing this, saying this, writing this..like this guy, he seems to be the nicest guy ever and look. Anyway, two weekends ago, he used to always ask her to stay in North Bay for the weekend but she usually goes home for the weekends..so FINALLY he convinced her to stay for the weekend and she hung out with I'm guessing the Powers and he COMPLETELY ignored her as he did me.

So..I don't know what now. I really want to keep going to Bible study but I don't want to make it seem like everything Brian is doing is okay. Like that he can walk all over us, but we'll just go back and let him do it again? It's really not okay, especially since there are two of us sitting exactly in the same position. Now, I don't know if Laura had feelings for him, but I'm guessing she did, and it's just not fair. Because even if we were friends, I don't think you should treat your friends the way he's been treating us.

I can honestly say he erased my feelings tonight though. I can't feel anything for someone who treats me and someone else I am friends with that way. He was being rude, disrespectful, a jerk as well as childish and immature.

Me and Laura might go to Bible study next week as a "united front" but I really have to decide whether I can or not. I don't want to sit there and take him ignoring me again. I don't want him to think how he treats us is okay. I don't know if I trust her enough not to "fall back into him" if he talks to her, and same to me. We'll see. I don't have to decide yet, I told her I'd think about it.

Oh, another thing, I am not really sure how I feel right now. Like Tiffany said, I think I knew me and Brian weren't working out or going to work out and I had an obvious crush on him, so maybe it was good to find something to pinpoint to him and say I can walk away now. But, I also know I didn't deserve to be treated that way. I am not really sure whether I am really happy that I can move on, or really pissed that he thinks he could walk on me the way he did.