It's just that kind of day..

I'm sick, I'm a mystery, this is not what I write about though.

I write about him. The dreams I had about him. Not only do I have crazy imaginations like what it'd be like to be his..but at night when it's dark and the sky is left with only the moon and the specks we call stars..I'm left with dreams of him when I'm awake and then when sleep overtakes my sick body, it sends me into the whirlwind of emotions I was attempting to escape.

The first one was about a week ago. We were in this classroom, sitting beside each other, and out of no where, he started to cry. And I remember looking over to him, and then all these emotions overtook me, and I grabbed a hold of his hand, and I held it tight. And he looked down at our hands linked together with the cutest look on his face. And I looked at him straight in the eyes and said, "it's going to be okay."

Last night was..we were dating and we were at this play thing, except he was sitting with his friend and I was like 3 seats away. For the first part of the play, I didn't realize he was sitting there. Then some people moved and I saw him so I started poking him to get his attention. He was ignoring me until his friend pointed out that I was poking him and he just said hey. Then the dream switched and I was sitting on this couch with him. I was sitting with my knees up though and he was still ignoring me for his friend. Then, I started crying. And then:
He said: "Kare..what's wrong?"
Me: "Nothing, nothing, I'm just tired."
Him: "You said that last night too, when we were on the phone, you left at like 9 because you said you were going to go to bed because you were tired, you can't still be tired, there must be something else wrong. Tell me what's wrong hun."
Me: "I just..you've been ignoring me, all day, you've been ignoring me. And something just feels different..for the last few weeks in this relationship, something has felt different, and I'm starting to realize that you don't want to be with me anymore."
Him: "What? That's not true."
Me: "Then why am I feeling this way? There has to be a reason."
Him: "There's a lot going on in my family right now.."
Me: "Really?"
Him: "Yeah.."
Me: "Oh, okay, I'm sorry hun."
And then he kissed me.