It's just that kind of day..

I love my headphones and my ipod too for that matter. I love that lately I can pick it up and play songs I've discovered somehow. Songs that say exactly how I'm feeling in the words I couldn't put my feelings into. I love that I can put it on and walk to class admiring the sunshine and the view of the trees, the sky, everything. I love the look people give me, the same look I used to give to people wearing headphones, a look of wonderment regarding which song they were listening to, and whether they had them on to avoid people, or just to forget the pain of this day or just because they have too much silence in their life as is. I started bringing my ipod at random moments, when I knew I'd be walking home with a setting sun and darkness would be trying to capture the world, and I just couldn't bear to be overwhelmed by that darkness without having something there to save me. Now, I bring them because my music gets me through the days and walking by myself seems too difficult to bear. I'd rather have the music in my ears than the hum of conversation from people who have boyfriends/girlfriends or just plain friends to walk with.

And today I learnt another reason why I love my headphones so much, because when I run into the him of the now, a soft hum of music in my ears that's telling me a story, a story that becomes ours, can play through our conversation, our first words in person, our we happened to run into each other, our looking for things to say and smiling all along..my realization that if I was myself and better...I'd be flying into the universe, overwhelmed by little butterflies of feeling..and that comes..but a lot of it is overtaken by the hum of the music.

The first song that we talked through on our first meeting today was Goo Goo Dolls-Iris.
And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand,
When everything is made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

The second song that we talked through, when we had our random conversation during the second time I saw him today was Sister Hazel-Your Mistake.
Without you, I'm not right, I'm not fine,
I wanna be rain that tastes like wine,
I wanna be good, I wanna be great,
I wanna be everything except for your mistake.

And then..when I looked out the window I was like "hey that guy is really cute" and then I looked behind that guy and there HE was haha, weird indeed, and the song Goo Goo Dolls-Let Love in was playing.
There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in.

I'm finally going to post this entry even though him and I pretty much entered friend zone. Although we were always in friend zone, but I refused to admit it. And then tonight he started talking to me about his crush again and it was REALLY cute. And I kind of like what we are..or what we're becoming.